Okay, I waited almost 50 sec and now I have to upload this masterpiece.

Hahaha. Oh, god.

You remembered what I look like and everything


(Reblogged from cancerholiday)


Wow, thank you, that’s one hell of a new word to learn

I love that I woke up to like four Tumblr posts from you just shouting my name. And it’s liiikke carrot-toe-mill-you-sis! AKA the most useless word in English (probably). 

(Reblogged from cancerholiday)


  • Oh my gosha Dasha seeing you do this made me want to do this so bad, I haven't done one since I was like 14.
  • 01: tell me the truth, what made you start liking the person you like right now?
  • We were being very playful when we first met. She was playing along with my silly stupidness (I adored it) and the more we talked the more interests we found we had in common, then I realized she was incredibly smart, funny and sweet, and I adore(d) her personality and mind.
  • 02: what on your body is hurting or bothering you?
  • My hands and wrists
  • 03: what was your last thought before going to bed last night?
  • I don't want a job. I don't need money right?
  • 04: what are you listening to?
  • TV playing in the background. It's infomercials. For some amazing ab-sculpting blender I'm sure.
  • 05: what’s something you’re not looking forward to?
  • Going back to work, paying off debts, future doctor's visits
  • 06: where do you think your best friend is right now?
  • In bed
  • 07: have you kissed anybody in the last five days?
  • Last kiss was almost two weeks ago (unfortunately)
  • 08: favorite song ?
  • I can't name one right now. I'm very into folk music at the moment, though.
  • 09: kiss on the first date?
  • I have before, but I don't think it's necessary. I prefer not to, I guess. Not that I have to worry about first dates anymore.
  • 10: is there one person you want to be with right now?
  • Yes! Of course! More than anything, if only I could win the lottery. She's on the other side of the world and I'm dying to be with her.
  • 11: are you seriously happy with where you are in life?
  • There are parts I'm happy with, but there's so much to work on. I'm getting there though.
  • 12: is there something you would like to say to someone?
  • Love you, miss you. I tell you every day though.
  • 13: what are three things you did today?
  • I put together stuff to send my girlfriend for her birthday. I met my friend Esme for dinner and drank at her apartment. I killed the shit out of some house flies using an electric swatter and felt like a trained killer. You trained me too well...
  • 14: would you rather sleep at a friend’s or have them over?
  • Have them over probably. For one, I like sleeping in my own bed, and two I like entertaining guests and being able to do whatever the hell I want in my own place
  • 15: what is your favorite kind of gum?
  • Some kind of mint
  • 16: are you friends with any of your ex boyfriends/ girlfriends?
  • I am
  • 17: what is on your wrists right now?
  • My watch, and skin and freckles and hair
  • 18: ever liked someone you thought you didn’t stand a chance with?
  • I never thought I stood a chance with anyone honestly. Have you seen me?
  • 19: does anyone have strong feelings for you?
  • Jeez I hope so
  • 20: are you slowly drifting away from someone?
  • I drift away from friends sometimes. That's just part of adulthood though, you find some kind of path in life and finally you're at an age where you want to go for something big, and you're taking time for yourself, you're dedicated to your life. At this point, you lose contact with people, but it's nothing personal. My dearest friends know I am available any time, and I know I can talk to them any time, and we can pick up again like no time's passed by at all.
  • 21: have you ever wasted your time on someone?
  • In my mind it seems like a waste, but actually it was good life experience. Nothing about it was really a waste.
  • 22: can you do the alphabet in sign language?
  • I think so! I haven't done it for a while so I might be rusty.
  • 23: how have you felt today?
  • Not bad. A little better than I have the last few days.
  • 24: you receive £60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
  • I'd mail it back to England and say KEEP YOUR FILTHY MONEY YOU WANKERS! USA! USA! USA!
  • 25: what is wrong with you right now?
  • (This list would exceed the word limit for Tumblr)
  • 26: is there anyone you’re really disappointed in?
  • There is, but shit's TL;DR
  • 27: would you rather have starbucks or jamba juice right now?
  • I would adore a 50,000,000 calorie peanut butter moo'd smoothie from Jamba Juice right now (By the way Dasha, Jamba Juice is no way, shape or form healthy for you - it is LOADED with sugar and artificial crap - not to mention, lots of the smoothies have ice cream)
  • 28: why aren’t you in ‘love’ with your last ex anymore?
  • Sometimes you just know you're better off being friends with people, and not in a relationship with them.
  • 29: how late did you stay up last night and why?
  • About 2 a.m. I was drawing a bit, talking with my girlfriend, and I'm trying to get back into my unhealthy insomniac way of life.
  • 30: when was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
  • Earlier today
  • 31: what were you doing an hour ago?
  • Eating leftover cheesecake while in my underwear and pondering life
  • 32: what are you looking forward to in the next month?
  • I can't think of anything right now. Liza's birthday, if I can do something special.
  • 33: are you wearing jeans right now?
  • 34: are you a patient person?
  • Usually I am extremely patient. But I also have anxiety, and can get really anxious and uncomfortable waiting for long periods of time.
  • 35: do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
  • Absolutely
  • 36: favorite color?
  • 37: did you have a dream last night?
  • I had a weird dream about being back in high school and failing all of my tests, also I think Sarah Palin was one of my teachers - Then I went outside the classroom and started smoking pot. This one girl came up to me and asked if I was smoking and asked if she could have some. When I gave it to her, she said she's a cop and tried to handcuff me...But my wrists were too fat, so she couldn't. Eventually she caught me, but I started sobbing to the officers about how I was just trying to finish school and I couldn't do it and if I go to jail my life will be ruined. The cops felt bad and let me go, and I ran away and stole an orange car. The cops chased me down, and who knows what happened after that. Or wait, did this really happen?
  • 38: are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
  • 39: if someone could be cuddling you right now, who would you want it to be?
  • I'm sick of your bullshit Tumblr, stop rubbing it in
  • 40: do you love anyone who is not related to you?
  • Many people, in one way or another.
  • 41: if someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
  • It comes up from time to time with people. I don't mind when they tell me. I'm glad they can get it off their chest and we can talk about it. Usually when that happens we can go on being friends and things are just fine.
  • 42: do you like meeting new people?
  • I adore it. Not everyone, of course. Sometimes people are assholes and I hate meeting them. But mostly I like getting to meet new people.
  • 43: are you afraid of falling in love?
  • No worries now, friend
  • 44: ever self-harmed or starved yourself?
  • I have not self-harmed in any way before
  • 45: has anyone ever told you that you have pretty eyes?
  • Yes I hear this a lot - and a lot more since getting lasik
  • 46: have you ever felt like you weren’t good enough?
  • I am a human being. Of course I feel this way.
(Reblogged from cancerholiday)



i just fucking wanted the one


This is me, doing anything. ANYTHING. I always make a mess 100% of the time

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Come lay with me. I wanna talk about nothing with someone that means something.
(via fuckingz)

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I wanted to post something ironic, but then I found this. Without doubt, my favourite photo of myself ever, because clearly man-cultural outing does some wicked cool witchcraft with her camera.

(Reblogged from cancerholiday)

Andrew Bird by Sachyn on Flickr.


Andrew Bird by Sachyn on Flickr.

(Reblogged from fuckyesandrewbird)

I arrived in Russia on July 11th, after a nice, long flight I slept through thanks to the miracle of Xanax. There was a delay coming from Moscow into Saint Petersburg, I was late to find my poor girl in the airport, a little confused and disoriented and couldn’t figure out how to use my temp phone. But we found each other!

We had pizza and beer in the city after dropping our luggage off, walked around a bit that evening, I remember being amazed how light it was outside at midnight. We shared our little bed in Saint Petersbug for a week and we enjoyed our long walks and sitting by the water, seeing different exhibits, drinking in the evenings, trying to cook in the tiny kitchen of our hotel. How nice it was to meet your friends in the city, I really loved socializing with people here. I adored this natural kindness the people in Russia had. 

I remember us talking about how perfectly imperfect things were. Our first clumsy (but amazing, and flawless) kiss was almost like the marker for our stay in the city - Not everything was going right, but every moment was truly perfect. I appreciated every moment with you. 

Then it was like a breath of fresh air when we went to Novosibirsk. Being up for an exhausting 24 hours, and going to our hotel to shower, and making the brilliant decision to sleep all day. When we woke up that evening, we were so happy. Our tempers were different, my heart felt so light. We only had a few days in our big, cozy bed there, but what a great time we had. Altai was something else, but we definitely had some amazing nights there, and not to mention KOTIKI, the greatest pregnant cat of all time. Then our long ride back to Kemerovo! 

And this was the most magical place. Why? It was your place! Your beautiful city, and I got to stay in your amazing home with you. I even got to wait for you to come home from work some days and cook for you - Oh I loved cooking for you! And you learned how to bowl and ride a bike! I’m so proud of you, I mean for everything. I’m really proud of the person you are, I pretty much beam with pride. When I was sitting next to you every day I was wondering what you were doing with little old me. You chose me out of anyone and everyone in the world, you! I was falling in love a little more every day, because you are so amazing. 

It was the shortest 45 days of my life. It felt like it passed by in a few hours, and now I’m back home, all the way across the world. But after all this, I know you are the person I want to be with! Our differences, in our tempers, cultures, language, likes and dislikes were somehow really trivial, really insignificant. Our personalities work together, and the way we express love to each other seems to be just what we need. We had our talks, we learned how to be with each other, and what an experience it all was. There’s so much to say but at the same time there are no words to sum this all up. 

Of course I’m not perfect, and even hard to put up with sometimes, and there are a hundred ways I’d love to be better. Thank you for loving me anyway, despite all of that. 

My trip was life changing in so many ways. It hasn’t even really sunk in that it’s over now. I’m ready to come back, I know we’ll figure out how to be together. And when I’m back, I can adore your appetite and cook for you and do a terrible job at warming you up and getting you tea as often as you want and probably mostly playing My Little Pony with you. Fuck I miss you. 

Okay, let’s pick our next meeting date! I’ll see you again soon Giganskyy, thank you for everything! I love you.

(P.S. biggest culture shocks: Russia has avocados, sometimes I guess. Public transportation is great, why don’t we have this in Los Angeles? I couldn’t be barefoot inside. Russia’s probably way better than the U.S. Standing in line (queues?) sucks, people crowd you way too much. I can’t really think of anything that shocking about Russia, mostly it was normal and pretty.) 


what time is it? time to get a watch and wait for you again.

Time to cry for the rest of my life probably. I’ll see you again in no time, don’t worry my love! There will be more bad jokes and bad singing and good cooking and great cuddling and confusing yet somehow arousing tickling. I’m yours for life. See you soon giganskyy

(Reblogged from man-cultural-outing)
(Reblogged from t--dactyl)